If I am still around?

I have asked the exact same confusion based questions for years. I know the answers by heart, its scary. Depressing in such a way. 

 My determination doesnt kill the irony of the situation.

 The difficulty of our lives has shown up again.

I saw it coming a while ago.

 Maybe, I have made major mistakes. Nothing that I couldnt overcome. This could have happened different over the time.

 I already reminise on you. You're not gone though. Whats my problem?

 I wish it would have. 

Why cant you try again.

Nevermind, dont answer that.

I know why already.

 I am a living puzzle.

 Back to what once was?

My reality is augmentative.

 I need to quit listening to my idiot self. Self-esteem has been too low on my end.

The shame is oozing out of my pores. Damn shame.

 My methods have always been positive. 

 The beginning of the rest of my life.

No problem in that theory as a end result.

 I want it all. Its how I was raised.

Blame the fact that I was a spoiled nigga coming up.

 My life continues. 

Your life continues.

Soon, You'll understand.